I went with my friends to a very serene place called BHANDARDHARA . It is 200 km from Mumbai. It’s a blend of natural beauty, waterfalls, mountains, tranquility, greenery, invigorating air and pristine ambiance. As the sun set, the place started to appear more alluring. The serenity gave me the confidence to go and try something I was always skeptical about.
I didn’t know if it was a right move, but I had a dose of *** at 10pm, the strongest PSYCHEDELIC SHIT known to the mankind. We put the speakers on and started playing trance and psychedelic music. After 15-20 minutes, I gazed at the lonely moon. It suddenly got another dimension to it and I could see it in 3-D. It appeared to me as a white color Jupiter or a big cheese ball. It was strange. I thought that my trip was on.
However, 1.5 hour passed and all I could feel was the moon changing its dimensions and walls breathing. I went in my room and started listening to Shiva tracks on my mobile and concentrating on a psyche bulb. I felt dizzy and went off to sleep at 12:30. After about half an hour, a chill ran down my spine and I got up. I was full of energy. It was chilly, so I took a blanket and went outside wearing 2 sweatshirts. But still, I was not really in the groove. I was expecting a lot more. I asked my friend for another dose. He asked me to wait for some more time. We were sitting beside the bone-fire. I was looking at a bulb hanging on the other side of the lake and it was grabbing my attention. I saw up and the sky was full of clouds. Also, the moon had started to glide in the air (for me).
My friend gave me another dose of ***. It really triggered me. I could see wheels of fire coming out of the bonfire. My friends appeared ghosts to me. They were hell scary with sunken eyes. But I consoled myself that it is my trip and I am bound to see things like this.
Suddenly I stopped feeling shivery and removed my clothes and was only in my shorts. The senses ceased to function in the normal way and started to work in a more intense way. I was on LEVEL 5 of psychedelic experience. I sat in a Samadhi position and started to focus on the bulb on the other side of the lake on the mountain. I could see LORD RUDRA in it. I closed my eyes and tried to connect to him. I could see him calling me for a spiritual journey…a dark journey towards enlightenment. I opened my eyes and saw a dark shadow of SHIVA waterside asking me to join him.
I told my friends that I am leaving my body and going with SHIVA, so take care of it. I wanted to explore my inner self, the life on this planet, spirits, soul and the mysteries. I concentrated and saw MY SOUL, a yellow light shining with orange, blue, red and green color surrounding it. I started flying with SHIVA. My mind started to open up. I was literally unbuttoning it and expanding it. The mind space was increasing. However, I would lose my concentration in between and see if everything was fine around me. The touch of sand and the wood ash was as smooth as a melted chocolate. I did taste the sand and wood ash. My friends were staring at me but I really didn’t care. I lost Shiva because of diverting again and again.
I tried looking for him when a soul came and took me back on the journey. This time, I could see millions of souls traveling from one universe to another. All were glowing. It was a visual treat. Even I started flying with them. There was no time dimension to it. All were heading towards SHIVA, the source of energy.
I felt new. I could see the soul opening and SHIVA inside it. Breathing in was like taking in the fire and breathing out was like exhaling it. I was learning to control the fire and the energy. And I was lying on the sand. I could feel snakes and various other creatures crossing my body but it hardly bothered me as I was having an out of body experience and a realization that this body is nothing, my identity is my soul. I could see colors all around me. The time was almost still. I was going through a learning process and a cleansing process.
I saw SHIVA dancing. I saw somebody calling me (soul) by the nameTEE’LU…and I was falling back while sitting in the Samadhi position. My soul was all golden when a friend of mine came near me and gave me negative vibes. I could see myself going black and so, I decided to stay away from him. The space in mind kept expanding all the time.
The layers were opening up. I was unlocking the mysteries. Death seemed like a child’s play that time. I had heard of all this till date. But this was the realization phase. I could see my brain unclogging itself. Subconscious mind was booming. I could see the sky full of stars when they were actually not there. 100’s of thoughts were rushing in my mind every second. I had an altered state of consciousness.
The sky turned red, green, blue all in a fraction of second. I let go all my thoughts and was ready for a change. Then I had UNION with SHIVA in a velvety red sky with loads of fireworks in the air. Many other souls were having sex with SHIVA there. The pleasure could not be quantified. I could feel SHIVA. I was figuring out that how could we use 100% of our brain. And the answer was our brain is connected to the universe. We can store the information anywhere as everything is connected. Everything is one. I could see the air. It was white in color and blowing hard.
I(soul) rested on a golden mountain with fellow souls and energized myself. Don’t know how many layers of universe I crossed. The souls were shining there. But I knew, I have to go back to my body.
The moon slowly started to go down and came the dawn time. We started playing Anoushka Shankar’s tracks. The music was never so captivating. Every string registered to the core of the brain and I saw the rising of the sun…and my REBIRTH. There were rainbows all around. It was B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L. I felt my body. I could disintegrate myself anytime from the body and then re-unite. I was free from all the bonds. I didn’t have a face, rather the whole body was assembling back. No pressure and burden, free to do anything. I lost all the dual personality. There was an ego death. I felt so fresh in the morning. Everything was new.
I was all done with my spiritual experiences by 7’o clock in the morning. I called up my mom and told her all my experiences. Now it was the time for a fun trip. I decided to go in my childhood days. It was a lot of fun. I saw glimpses of myself growing up and recollected many school and college incidents. I was dancing with my friend in a world full of butterflies, flowers and rainbows. We were flying on a dragon. There were lights and plants glowing all around us and dancing with us. The Time passed and it was 9’o clock and I was still wandering in another world.
We decided to go back. While going back in the car, I started to feel claustrophobic. The roads were zigzag and I felt as if the mountains were connected with narrow tracks and we were speeding on it. I was feeling hell scary. The trees were looking like dragons and I could feel the negativity. It was a very tough time, but I consoled myself and managed to be normal for those 3 hours. I reached back home and went to sleep. After getting up, I was all fine.
However, all that has got permanently registered in my mind. It was not just a trip, but a handshake with the reality. I still have that orange point in my head that I call NIRVANA and it gives me immense pleasure when I focus on it. I feel NEW. All my senses are a bit sharper and I feel I have a better understanding about the things around me. I feel the SPACE.
This was a journey of a PSYCHONAUT IN PURSUIT OF MYSTICISM… and he succeeded.
I didn’t know if it was a right move, but I had a dose of *** at 10pm, the strongest PSYCHEDELIC SHIT known to the mankind. We put the speakers on and started playing trance and psychedelic music. After 15-20 minutes, I gazed at the lonely moon. It suddenly got another dimension to it and I could see it in 3-D. It appeared to me as a white color Jupiter or a big cheese ball. It was strange. I thought that my trip was on.
However, 1.5 hour passed and all I could feel was the moon changing its dimensions and walls breathing. I went in my room and started listening to Shiva tracks on my mobile and concentrating on a psyche bulb. I felt dizzy and went off to sleep at 12:30. After about half an hour, a chill ran down my spine and I got up. I was full of energy. It was chilly, so I took a blanket and went outside wearing 2 sweatshirts. But still, I was not really in the groove. I was expecting a lot more. I asked my friend for another dose. He asked me to wait for some more time. We were sitting beside the bone-fire. I was looking at a bulb hanging on the other side of the lake and it was grabbing my attention. I saw up and the sky was full of clouds. Also, the moon had started to glide in the air (for me).
My friend gave me another dose of ***. It really triggered me. I could see wheels of fire coming out of the bonfire. My friends appeared ghosts to me. They were hell scary with sunken eyes. But I consoled myself that it is my trip and I am bound to see things like this.
Suddenly I stopped feeling shivery and removed my clothes and was only in my shorts. The senses ceased to function in the normal way and started to work in a more intense way. I was on LEVEL 5 of psychedelic experience. I sat in a Samadhi position and started to focus on the bulb on the other side of the lake on the mountain. I could see LORD RUDRA in it. I closed my eyes and tried to connect to him. I could see him calling me for a spiritual journey…a dark journey towards enlightenment. I opened my eyes and saw a dark shadow of SHIVA waterside asking me to join him.
I told my friends that I am leaving my body and going with SHIVA, so take care of it. I wanted to explore my inner self, the life on this planet, spirits, soul and the mysteries. I concentrated and saw MY SOUL, a yellow light shining with orange, blue, red and green color surrounding it. I started flying with SHIVA. My mind started to open up. I was literally unbuttoning it and expanding it. The mind space was increasing. However, I would lose my concentration in between and see if everything was fine around me. The touch of sand and the wood ash was as smooth as a melted chocolate. I did taste the sand and wood ash. My friends were staring at me but I really didn’t care. I lost Shiva because of diverting again and again.
I tried looking for him when a soul came and took me back on the journey. This time, I could see millions of souls traveling from one universe to another. All were glowing. It was a visual treat. Even I started flying with them. There was no time dimension to it. All were heading towards SHIVA, the source of energy.
I felt new. I could see the soul opening and SHIVA inside it. Breathing in was like taking in the fire and breathing out was like exhaling it. I was learning to control the fire and the energy. And I was lying on the sand. I could feel snakes and various other creatures crossing my body but it hardly bothered me as I was having an out of body experience and a realization that this body is nothing, my identity is my soul. I could see colors all around me. The time was almost still. I was going through a learning process and a cleansing process.
I saw SHIVA dancing. I saw somebody calling me (soul) by the nameTEE’LU…and I was falling back while sitting in the Samadhi position. My soul was all golden when a friend of mine came near me and gave me negative vibes. I could see myself going black and so, I decided to stay away from him. The space in mind kept expanding all the time.
The layers were opening up. I was unlocking the mysteries. Death seemed like a child’s play that time. I had heard of all this till date. But this was the realization phase. I could see my brain unclogging itself. Subconscious mind was booming. I could see the sky full of stars when they were actually not there. 100’s of thoughts were rushing in my mind every second. I had an altered state of consciousness.
The sky turned red, green, blue all in a fraction of second. I let go all my thoughts and was ready for a change. Then I had UNION with SHIVA in a velvety red sky with loads of fireworks in the air. Many other souls were having sex with SHIVA there. The pleasure could not be quantified. I could feel SHIVA. I was figuring out that how could we use 100% of our brain. And the answer was our brain is connected to the universe. We can store the information anywhere as everything is connected. Everything is one. I could see the air. It was white in color and blowing hard.
I(soul) rested on a golden mountain with fellow souls and energized myself. Don’t know how many layers of universe I crossed. The souls were shining there. But I knew, I have to go back to my body.
The moon slowly started to go down and came the dawn time. We started playing Anoushka Shankar’s tracks. The music was never so captivating. Every string registered to the core of the brain and I saw the rising of the sun…and my REBIRTH. There were rainbows all around. It was B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L. I felt my body. I could disintegrate myself anytime from the body and then re-unite. I was free from all the bonds. I didn’t have a face, rather the whole body was assembling back. No pressure and burden, free to do anything. I lost all the dual personality. There was an ego death. I felt so fresh in the morning. Everything was new.
I was all done with my spiritual experiences by 7’o clock in the morning. I called up my mom and told her all my experiences. Now it was the time for a fun trip. I decided to go in my childhood days. It was a lot of fun. I saw glimpses of myself growing up and recollected many school and college incidents. I was dancing with my friend in a world full of butterflies, flowers and rainbows. We were flying on a dragon. There were lights and plants glowing all around us and dancing with us. The Time passed and it was 9’o clock and I was still wandering in another world.
We decided to go back. While going back in the car, I started to feel claustrophobic. The roads were zigzag and I felt as if the mountains were connected with narrow tracks and we were speeding on it. I was feeling hell scary. The trees were looking like dragons and I could feel the negativity. It was a very tough time, but I consoled myself and managed to be normal for those 3 hours. I reached back home and went to sleep. After getting up, I was all fine.
However, all that has got permanently registered in my mind. It was not just a trip, but a handshake with the reality. I still have that orange point in my head that I call NIRVANA and it gives me immense pleasure when I focus on it. I feel NEW. All my senses are a bit sharper and I feel I have a better understanding about the things around me. I feel the SPACE.
This was a journey of a PSYCHONAUT IN PURSUIT OF MYSTICISM… and he succeeded.
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